Soldiers, You've got to Soldier On.

Dear Rufus,
I've always knew that I would end up with you.

Even strangers knew how badly I've always wanted to be with you,
even they believed that you'd come home with me more than I did.
But the day will finally come...
..sometime this year around Christmas,
because Christmas is a season to be jolly!
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& I don't care how much in debt I'm gonna be in, Imma take you home with me!
I never ask for anything, & all I'm asking for this time,
is for the world to stay out of my way.
Because together we'll make magic happen.
I ALREADY LOVE YOU RUFUS!
♥

It's 3:07am, I'm not gonna do perspective tonight, because I'm gonna sleep. (:

Sugar coated love untold

Save me from becoming a starbucks idiot!
Currently camping out at starbucks with my hot Toffee Nut Latte 
I had the same last night around this time, just that it was on the house & my drink was served to me, not forgetting the extra stamps getting me one step closer to my lovely starbucks planner! (:
Today, I only earn myself ONE stamp with rm12.30 and I had to wait pretty long for my drink.
But it was worth it. Even got the 10% off from jusco card. hahaa..

I would like to say that I'm enjoying the peace and serenity here, but unfortunately there're 2 women beside me gossiping and having a gala time bitching about some people,haha..
Ohwell, as long as I'm in my own space I'll be okay.

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Finished my diner!
Today autocad was very very nice to me.
No lag, no stupid problems, and most importantly, no 6hours wait for render!

The palm trees as mentioned in some posts back (:

Okay, back to work. Gonna do some sketching stuff for design.

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Don't Overstay Your Welcome.

Was watching a documentary on Dr.Mahathir on History channel and a phrase he said was really meaningful to me.

"Don't overstay your welcome".

I guess I've always knew what it meant and have been practicing it ever since I lost my innocence. But I guess sometimes along the way we get involved in relationships that doesn't really allow us to leave when obviously either one of us is not welcomed anymore.

And when one of us do leave, by force. It changes the entire picture. For better or for worst?
The answer is really just the side you choose to be on.
It would seem better because you're finally out of hell.
It would seem worse because nothing worth staying on so long, is worth it anymore.

My question is: Do you believe in second chances?

I personally do not.
But why was there an exception when it came to you?
Maybe because you looked a lot like me.

No matter who you are, you have no right to question how careful I am with who I give my trust to. Because no matter how hard I try to explain, you'd never get to see what sort of broken trusts I've been through.

The worst of them all?

The ones you only find out after the relationship has ended.

If you're assuming that by 'relationship' I mean boyfriend-girlfriend, you are pretty shallow I can't deny. And for some reasons, I find it easier to trust guys than girls. Why? Because I'm a girl and I would know that girls are bitches no matter how decent they look. Correction, especially how decent they look.

When I was younger, I used to think that people who chose to smoke are really stupid because they're only choosing to shorten their lives.
And worse, killing the people around them with secondhand smoke.
If you wanna die faster, don't force others to be suckers like you.
Up unto the point where I wanted to literally throw that packet of ciggs in your face and tell you to stop destroy our lives because of your stupidity.

Somehow I don't think people who smoke are stupid anymore.
The same reason why I don't think being a bad person is that bad anymore.
An acquiantance once said :" Doesn't mean that when a person smokes, he's a bad person."
Whether he really meant what he said or he was just defending himself, I find that quite true.

Another friend once said:" No matter how pretty a girl may look, but when she starts smoking, everything just goes off."

To a certain degree I actually agreed with that. But I don't anymore.

Last but not least, I remember asking another friend why does he need to smoke so much. And he answered me saying: " Because it takes your mind off everything for 2seconds!"

Hahahaa... I don't think I'll ever forget that.

Things ended because I realised I shouldn't overstay my welcome, otherwise turning things uglier than it already were. All of us did have our fun share & I chose to remember the happy ones, you?

After 4 freaking days of being home, sick and overloaded with CAD drawings, I'm more ready to get out of house tomorrow than anything!

Wei-Ling Gallery
Visited some time back.
How nice if I actually own that place, could see myself stress releasing there everyday.
Haha, and to those smoke-suckers,
this helps you take shit outta your mind for as long as you're in there!
HAH! I win! =p

Ko. vs. Chi

miKO. vs. miCHI
Again the printscreen issue.
But do click to enlarge cuz it's damn hilarious.
This is the kind of conversation real friends have with each other.
(:
night!

Now Gimme Something To Believe

Can someone please tell me why whenever I printscreen, I can't enlarge otherwise it'll look very blur like the example above?

Anyways, that's what I've been spending half of my Saturday doing.
This week I managed to ground myself!
Proud of me?
But I did catch 2012 on Mon/Tues, can't rememeber.
All I remembered was that the movie is damn good!
I rate 2012 : 9/10

Moving on, I woke up this morning thinking about holding a cheque that has my name on it with rm20,000. It made me smile like 38! ahhaha.. Then reality hit and I thought of that uncle in scholarship meeting last Tues.

Honestly, I think he was quite ...what's that word for it.. materialistic lor. (Imagine that word coming from me, I hope you get what I mean when I call someone else materialistic) How can he call us to meeting and give us a bunch of digits, telling us how much our scholarship is worth and how we're 'responsible' or suppose to 'show gratitude' by indirectly making us(force is a strong word) find people for them?! I find that so offensive and so unreasonable!

Okay,
I get it that we're suppose to pay back in ways other than money.
I get it that it's not too much to ask for to find someone to study in our college. ( it might even benefit us)
I get what you're trying to say about gratitude.

But what I don't get is,
How can you give us kids.. okay, young adults, a bunch of figures that goes like rm328,8465 (I'm not exxagerating) including words like 'investment' and 'we would have...in our bank account, if we didn't..." ??!?!!!!
Are you out of your mind?
I'm sorry that you're old and you forgot what it's like to have innocence, but please spare us a few more years for being naive because the truth is, we know what is ahead.
We know about ass kissing,shoe licking and money talking.
How could you say such things, worst, all those words combined and pollute our minds?!
I wish I'm capable of hiring a lawyer to sue you lor uncle!

I was damn pissed!
Luckily Mr.Henry gave us a prep talk just before meeting was dismissed.
Ironic to the aforementioned uncle, I was pretty moved by Mr.Henry's speech.
I can't remember much, except for the part where he said we're all different, just like our fingers. Though they're of different height/length, we cannot live without anyone of them. (:
And he really calmed my anger when he sort of explained what that unreasonable uncle actually meant.
Seriously, without Mr.Henry, I would walk out that room with my face very very black lor!

Not saying anything bad about any parties, just expressing my opinions.
Sorry in advance if I offended anyone.

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Okay, remember the part where I mentioned about my 6hours FAILED render in my previous post? This was how it looked like ...SIX FREAKING HOURS LATER!

Sad case rite?
I literally gave up!
You win!!!!
Hear me!
You win!

After that I didn't quite bother adee how imperfect my render was, I just took a previous of my residential assignment and handed in for submission.

Above: Overall look
Below: Sliced

I don't like it.
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So for my last autoCAD 3D assignment, I try to do things smarter and nicer (: ahahaha... Instead of frustrating over furniture fittings and spaces malfunctioning, I mirrored my building!
It's a diner.

(click to enlarge)

I actually did most of the furnitures myself!
And I kinda think that in plan my diner looks like a Gstring.
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But ohwell, Gstrings saved me a lot of time!
Not only my building (walls,slab,windows etc) could me mirrored,
even my furnitures are mirrored!
Hence, the symmetricalness of the Gstring diner!
ahahaha..
And I actually did the D I N E R words myself!
It's gonna be very american this time around.
I've decided to get out of my comfort zone since I love/always design very eastern-ly.
And I very happily designed a butterfly roof for it since NOBODY would tell me about water leakage! HAH!
It's gonna have a palm tree when it's done!

So that's pretty much it about life right now, assignments,assignments and more assignments. Getting sick and getting into such unfortunate luck is what stops it from going smoothly.
But anyhow, I'll make it work.

As for entertainment goes, the only ones I'm getting is by shopping online and reading xiaxue's blog!
I really like the way she speaks her mind out!
And she's reaaaaallly funny!
Love watching her videos!
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I love experimenting with food.
I love cooking, it's quite stress relief.
Because food=love.
LOL.
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Also, I've started planning about year end trips/celebrations/fun fun fun!
Cuz Christmas time is here!
I love Christmas.
It's the only holiday season that I like NOT because it means school holiday.
I hope everything goes smoothly this holiday.
I think I should get a job during short sem next year.
Can't wait for Christmas! XD

The Angry Post.

wtf is wrong with young brats nowadays with their brand new dslr?
I seriously don't get how unfair their lives are compared to mine.
I work so fking hard for every single shit and it might not even be the best, but it definitely feels the best cuz i earn every last bit of it with blood,sweat & tears.
Until you walk in one day with a fking dslr in your hand just because you think it's cool.
Until you get to study where white people live and wearing fancy winter wear just because daddy has a bank account full of shitass cash!!
I fking hate money! I wish money never existed so there won't be any stupid social class losers like me!

Someday when I drive a Bimmer and carry different LV bags every single day, I will throw cash on your stupid faces because you are so fking ugly to me!
ARRGHHHHH I am damn pissed at the society!!!!!!!!!!!!

Seriously I have a lot of potential to be a rockstar lor, who else can you find so much hate from, other than me?

Yes, I do get my motivation and enthusiasm to work harder by hating the world. Because my ultimate dream in life is to earn so much that I can just throw money at your face just to make you shut up! You can never make me kiss your filthy ass, I'd rather lick the floor covered with vomit!

If you know my ego and pride, you'd won't think that I'm so kiasu anymore.

Money makes the world go round. Why would you even hesitate to agree to that? Look at the society that you're in, then answer yourself. Would you be any happier off,without money?
hahaa... Didn't think so.

I started rendering my shitty looking residential assignment from 2.30pm-9.15pm. And it turned out like shit.
So don't shit me now.

Somedays,you try to bottle things like these up, when you really shouldn't.
Convincing yourself that there is more to life than money and power.
This is what happens when the bottle is full.
Life is so DAMN beautiful!

H E L L O

Look! It's me!

On rare occasions such as this, I will post up a camwhored picture because I have a feeling that my readers probably forgot how I look like already since I don't like posting pictures of myself anymore. And since life has been pretty okay besides the hecticness of my schedule, what more fun to do that to SS?

Plus, since my laptop decided to fail on me, my camera seems to be giving up on me too. I can't transfer any photos anywhere, and to add to the problem of inconvenience, I lost my cable.
I never lose my things. NEVER.

And since I'm either occupied with assignments or de-stressing with the people close to me, I can't be bothered to look for it. I can't be bothered to reformat my laptop even. Well, not till I'm done with this semester. Seriously, why is this sem so shitty? I blame it on the theory subjects.

Anyhow, the interesting things this week.
1. I went for MJ This is it last Wed. Quite sad lah, he was such a legend.

2. I met up with my girls last Friday and we had a blast gossiping!
Seriously, I think the last time I actually gossip this much was back in highschool. You know why? Because they were there.
And we went to Alexis Bangsar. They have the worst service treatment I've ever known of all my life!
They're not only racist, they're also damn stupid lor! Besides this ONE indian guy. Others can kiss my ass.
Imagine a short n fat woman who I suppose wash dishes in the kitchen could LAUGH AT YOU when paying the bill of rm120 with a rm50 note + 7 rm10 notes!
Damn feel like slapping that idiot lor! (we didn't hv the cash. we should have signed lor! Or gave her all rm1 notes! Stuff it in her face,make her shut up!)
I was so damn pissed that I FORGOT there's such thing as "I wanna see your manager!"
I'll definitely tell you the entire unfortunate story when I have the time.
That's all for now about the stupid service at ALEXIS BANGSAR!
Racist idiots!

3. I went for JimCarrey's Cristmas Carol on Saturday.
This show is seriously NOT suitable for kids. It's damn deep & dark, I really wonder whether the kids knew what was happening besides laughing at how silly JimCarrey could be.
Overall, I rate it 9/10 .
It's a really meaningful movie. Especially for people like me (and miko)
Anyways,watch it! (:

4. Celebrated Miko's half-birthday today (Sunday) by buying Sticky's candy!
It's really nice! And expensive too. But once in awhile worth it lah!
Bought 2pairs of ballet flats =D
Finally found the perfect-est man alive at NewYork Deli!
I told Miko to proposed to him before it's too late! I will be very happy for her if they got together!
(Okay, because he's so perfect and I've never met a man so perfect before, I should talk more about him.)
I suppose he's the boss there.
He used to study/live/work in Aussie.
He came to our table and asked us how much the Sticky candy cost. And told us about himself and how he ordered that FOR HIS WEDDING, with his+his wife's names written on it. (You see,+1 adee. So romantic!)
We ordered choco fondue and he brought it to us. And you know what he said? You.will.melt!
"If not enough chocolate, just let me know."
OMG! Me n Miko were already melting lor!
Then because we were sharing a main course, he brought us an extra plate without us even asking! (SEE THAT ALEXIS BANGSAR!!)
And because we ordered a lot of sweet stuff,plus the candy, he was like:" oo.. now I know you guys are sweet tooths." 

Okay, maybe you think I'm lying. You're probably thinking those are just stupid pick up lines. Trust me when I say he's not one of those sam pat lala zhais.
He's not good looking(just pleasant looking), he's tall, he's a grown man (-___- meaning he's not a guy/boy. He's a real man) and he was really really nice lor...
The only reason I asked Miko to proposed to him is because I'm already attached.
YES,THAT perfect!

The main reason why he's perfect is because he doesn't even try. And he wins. I guess his wife must be really really xing fu( bahagia? I have no idea the word for it in english)!

The other reason to why he's perfect is because he's out of our league!
We always fall for men we cannot get. They're either rockstars/married men/gay.

I have elevations and sections to draw but I just can't stop about how perfect this man is. He's really too good to be true that I doubt myself that we even met him!

Okay,now I feel bad if my bf reads this, though I told him about this perfect man adee lah.

I still love you,you stupid bunny! (:

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I have replacement class on my off day tomorrow,sad.
I need a vacation! I need an escape!
I can't wait till Christmas!
Oh, I'm pretty obsessed with curling my hair lately.
Sometimes it's perfect,sometimes it's disastrous.
I somehow feel that curling hair is easier than straightening hair.
Anyhow, my hair is so dead. =(

And there's nothing more I want that is bothering my mind since forever,especially now.

I WANT A FREAKING DSLR!

It's really not fair lor. Sometimes. Sigh.
Different people,different life.
At least I'm blessed with sight.
Though pretty bad eye sight,but better than none (:
See, I'm actually pretty optimistic wan lor!

Back to work.
I won't be sleeping tonight! XD
I won't go out this week!
I will make myself a very boring lifeless person this week until assesment!


hahaaha...we all know I'm lying.